I have found that most people tend to have someone who they refer to as their "dream guy", i guess in a way i have one too, but in reality i don't really have a dream guy...i meet whoever i meet....but if i DID.....
For me i think i am not too picky. I think im kinda open to many different races, and stuff. However, from experience because of "E", refer to my other posts if you don't know him. (hes the first guy, and so far only guy i have done a little bit of stuff with and dated for a week??), i think
i prefer to date an asian guy (maybe a discreet guy also?) because he might relate better to me. I mean im still open to other races, but i think that someone that is asian might understand where i come from better immediately than someone from another race. Don't get me wrong i would love to still date someone from another race, but an asian might adhere to my values and culture easier because they have come from the same place i came from in the beginning...if that makes sense haha. Overall i mean my dream guy would have to be at least decent looking, but doesn't have to be model status.
The most important trait at the end of the day, however much corny it may sound is the personality. I think that someone who is honest, capable of communicating, and being understanding/counsiderate are the top three qualities that i look for. Keep in mind, i think my "dream person" might change.
By the way, random...but if you care haha...i have been wanting to disclose that my real name is Matt, not Jake. Jake is my fake name that i always use. Sorry about that. Everything else though is REAL!
Take Care,
Matt
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Can You Lend A Hand?
Sorry i meant to post this a while back, but needed to edit it, but here it goes:
This morning i just went to my every other Saturday mentor mentee program. This mentor mentee program is to pair college students with other students from (middle school to college) who have autism. I joined the autism club at my school, because i wanted to learn about a disorder that i have heard of but never really studied or knew about in depth like cancer or heart disease. This club has been very rewarding. My mentee has stayed in the program for almost an entire year now, and although there are other mentees out there they usual leave within a quarter or two because they are either uncomfortable or their mentor is not the perfect match for them. I am grateful for my mentee staying, and i hope to work on and strengthen our relationship as he improves on certain areas of his social skills. I just wanna say that i love contributing back to the community and helping those around me. I will help anybody whether they are my friends or strangers. I feel that since i have the ability to help others, its important to contribute now because the community around us is who we are.
Care to help someone out?
This morning i just went to my every other Saturday mentor mentee program. This mentor mentee program is to pair college students with other students from (middle school to college) who have autism. I joined the autism club at my school, because i wanted to learn about a disorder that i have heard of but never really studied or knew about in depth like cancer or heart disease. This club has been very rewarding. My mentee has stayed in the program for almost an entire year now, and although there are other mentees out there they usual leave within a quarter or two because they are either uncomfortable or their mentor is not the perfect match for them. I am grateful for my mentee staying, and i hope to work on and strengthen our relationship as he improves on certain areas of his social skills. I just wanna say that i love contributing back to the community and helping those around me. I will help anybody whether they are my friends or strangers. I feel that since i have the ability to help others, its important to contribute now because the community around us is who we are.
Care to help someone out?
Workin out at the gym
has been quite fun recently. Although i have been running around my campus with a friend which is about 4 miles, i have been finding the gym to be very convenient and enjoying. I get to watch hot guys while running, using weights, sit ups, and finally planks. Today, i was running on the treadmill (im quite competitive on the treadmill, i usually want to outbeat anyone that is next to me). Back to the treadmill story, i was running, and as i look down i can see a view of the weight pit below me and so many hot guys working out. I saw one in particular, he was asian and had crazy buff arms and nice body. I, like the coward i am pretended i was running and watching the tv above me, but i gave him couple glances. He looked back too and we kept keeping in eye contact many times throughout my run. He stayed in the same location and he even sat down and lifted weights showing off his body. Anyways...nothing happened, i didn't go to him or do anything like the scardy cat i am haha. But yeah, basically today i just went to meet my mentee who is autistic, went to the library to study for finals, and finally went to the gym and chilled with apartment mates and some friends from elsewhere.
Hope you had a nice day,
Jake
Hope you had a nice day,
Jake
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Chilled Again Today
Hey guys, (note: this is just a post about what i did today, might be boring, but if your bored enjoy!!)
I didn't do much today. This morning, i woke up at around 7:30 a.m. and didn't go to math lecture because i was really tired (been doing this, kinda need to stop that) and then woke up several times until 10 when i also missed my organic chemistry lecture (justified cause i tell myself ill listen to podcast). When i woke up, i felt quite horned up and decided to jerk off with random strangers on webcam. (a bad habit of mine...trying to stop that). Around 10:30 am i headed off to my college academic advising, because i am considering changing my major from biochemistry/chemistry to possibly a biology or psych major. However, i want to go for biology even though its impacted. I spoke to the adviser, and she like many others in the academic advising, except for one person in there are useless. My friends confirmed that the academic advisers seem to be lazy and keep telling students to go to the "major counselor". But i find that these advisers should at least help the student find the major they would possibly like by asking them questions and finally allowing them to have a better feeling of what they would like to pursue.
So, after i finished with the adviser, i went to meet my apartment mate this year and room mate last year (lets call him "J"). J and i went to pick up our writing papers from last year-- you can only pick them up one year after you finish that class. Then he headed off with a friend to count money for donations that they got for a club while i went to the biology academic advising. I found out i had to come back at 1. I ended up having lunch with J and as usual, we go into the dining hall and get a veggie sausage and he stick it under beans while i stick it under salsa. We check out and save some money for our dining cash. We do that for fun, and because we think that the dining halls are a rip off, so we deserve a way to compensate ourselves for paying overpriced food haha.
After lunch i went back to the apartment and waited for my other apartment mate and also my last year roomate, lets call him "JK". (as a side note: Jk and J were my roomates from freshman year and we are basically very close, we can talk about anything other than my sexuality haha...and nope i am not secretly in love with them or anything, they are the brothers i never had in my childhood) Jk and i went to a job fair for engineers...i don't know why i went but i wanted to check out the big companies like google, amazon, fb, and others. I wanted to see how they promote their business and recruit. I got lots of free stuff though specifically from google and boeing haha. Afterwards i went to just accompany Jk to eat lunch and then he went off to his work while i went to biology academic advising. After i signed in, they closed the sign ups and said it was at full capacity (good thing i went right on time). Again, the biology adviser was useless...she told me what i had already known. I thought she could have counseled whether or not biology was a good fit for me. Anyways, i don't think i can get into biology though, i finished all the prerequisites except for two more quarters of physics. Without those this is my last chance to apply, and i most likely won't get in.
I ended up going back to my dorm, and soon one of my friends her name is E went with me and J to jamba juice and then we got dinner (personal pizzas). After dinner we all went back to the apartment and played couple games of monopoly deal (im addicted haha) and I went to the gym with Jk and another friend, her name is "C'. I ran 4.5 miles, and then did some weights, push ups, and planks. There were couple of really cute guys. I saw three guys who were looking at me throughout my time in the weights section, but i immediately turned away and pretended i was focusing on something else while lifting--- im really shy, and im EXTREMELY scared to look back at people when they look at me. Trust me im trying to learn how to make eye contact with people, i mean why wouldn't i wanna try to lure some cute guys and ask them out?! Anyways after we worked out, me and Jk walked C back to her apartment and got some shakes. As we were going back we saw our pretty close friend named "Cl", hes mexican by blood, but his parents raised him without the mexican culture, so essentially hes like an american. Me and Jk were shivering in the cold and walked back to our apartments, and now after a hot shower im sitting on my bed writing this post.
I should sleep soon cuz i have to do some volunteering tomorrow morning. I guess i can say today was productive. I think i will try to organize my writing better next time so its not as crowded, and PLUS i want to write about all the hot guys i see!!!-- its hard to cuz, i kinda forget about it after couple days. Also, ill try to post more about me, and the people who i hang out with, so theres at least a visual of who i am and who i hang out with haha. I mean whats the point of reading a blog, if you can't visualize all the sexy guys that i meet in my life :). Gonna go read some blogs now, nite.
I didn't do much today. This morning, i woke up at around 7:30 a.m. and didn't go to math lecture because i was really tired (been doing this, kinda need to stop that) and then woke up several times until 10 when i also missed my organic chemistry lecture (justified cause i tell myself ill listen to podcast). When i woke up, i felt quite horned up and decided to jerk off with random strangers on webcam. (a bad habit of mine...trying to stop that). Around 10:30 am i headed off to my college academic advising, because i am considering changing my major from biochemistry/chemistry to possibly a biology or psych major. However, i want to go for biology even though its impacted. I spoke to the adviser, and she like many others in the academic advising, except for one person in there are useless. My friends confirmed that the academic advisers seem to be lazy and keep telling students to go to the "major counselor". But i find that these advisers should at least help the student find the major they would possibly like by asking them questions and finally allowing them to have a better feeling of what they would like to pursue.
So, after i finished with the adviser, i went to meet my apartment mate this year and room mate last year (lets call him "J"). J and i went to pick up our writing papers from last year-- you can only pick them up one year after you finish that class. Then he headed off with a friend to count money for donations that they got for a club while i went to the biology academic advising. I found out i had to come back at 1. I ended up having lunch with J and as usual, we go into the dining hall and get a veggie sausage and he stick it under beans while i stick it under salsa. We check out and save some money for our dining cash. We do that for fun, and because we think that the dining halls are a rip off, so we deserve a way to compensate ourselves for paying overpriced food haha.
After lunch i went back to the apartment and waited for my other apartment mate and also my last year roomate, lets call him "JK". (as a side note: Jk and J were my roomates from freshman year and we are basically very close, we can talk about anything other than my sexuality haha...and nope i am not secretly in love with them or anything, they are the brothers i never had in my childhood) Jk and i went to a job fair for engineers...i don't know why i went but i wanted to check out the big companies like google, amazon, fb, and others. I wanted to see how they promote their business and recruit. I got lots of free stuff though specifically from google and boeing haha. Afterwards i went to just accompany Jk to eat lunch and then he went off to his work while i went to biology academic advising. After i signed in, they closed the sign ups and said it was at full capacity (good thing i went right on time). Again, the biology adviser was useless...she told me what i had already known. I thought she could have counseled whether or not biology was a good fit for me. Anyways, i don't think i can get into biology though, i finished all the prerequisites except for two more quarters of physics. Without those this is my last chance to apply, and i most likely won't get in.
I ended up going back to my dorm, and soon one of my friends her name is E went with me and J to jamba juice and then we got dinner (personal pizzas). After dinner we all went back to the apartment and played couple games of monopoly deal (im addicted haha) and I went to the gym with Jk and another friend, her name is "C'. I ran 4.5 miles, and then did some weights, push ups, and planks. There were couple of really cute guys. I saw three guys who were looking at me throughout my time in the weights section, but i immediately turned away and pretended i was focusing on something else while lifting--- im really shy, and im EXTREMELY scared to look back at people when they look at me. Trust me im trying to learn how to make eye contact with people, i mean why wouldn't i wanna try to lure some cute guys and ask them out?! Anyways after we worked out, me and Jk walked C back to her apartment and got some shakes. As we were going back we saw our pretty close friend named "Cl", hes mexican by blood, but his parents raised him without the mexican culture, so essentially hes like an american. Me and Jk were shivering in the cold and walked back to our apartments, and now after a hot shower im sitting on my bed writing this post.
I should sleep soon cuz i have to do some volunteering tomorrow morning. I guess i can say today was productive. I think i will try to organize my writing better next time so its not as crowded, and PLUS i want to write about all the hot guys i see!!!-- its hard to cuz, i kinda forget about it after couple days. Also, ill try to post more about me, and the people who i hang out with, so theres at least a visual of who i am and who i hang out with haha. I mean whats the point of reading a blog, if you can't visualize all the sexy guys that i meet in my life :). Gonna go read some blogs now, nite.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Just Met Up With
the first guy that i met in my life. Lets call him "E". The one from before when i posted about him and me feeling guilty. Basically, i tried to avoid him since winter break but i just wanted to get my point across to him that i don't have any feelings for him anymore. After my parents dropped me off at school, i was already in my apartment. our text went like this before the encounter:
e: Hey im near your place, wanna meet up?
me: oh ill be back in 15 mins. (i was already in the apartment)
e: Do you wanna hang out now?
e: can i go up now?
me: ok lets meet downstairs
e: what ever.
me: kk im going down now
I think he said whatever because he knew i was avoiding him and now didn't want him to go up to my apartment. (but that will never be known, thats my interpretation)
I went downstairs outside of the lobby of my apartment, and after walking around by myself in circles, i see a figure that looks like him. I am bad at recognizing people, so i stare for a couple seconds, and soon i see someone waving at me. We got closer and hugged. Then we proceeded to sit at a table outside, and we caught up on what happened with our lives and etc. Soon it got to the question. He said that he met someone he really liked that lived in my apartment, and that they have been going out for past couple weeks. E asked me though if i still had any feelings towards him, because he still thinks about me and likes me a little. I didn't want to say outright that i don't have any feelings for him anymore, and that he should focus on who he is dating right now. Instead, i said that i really don't have time for a relationship, and that since he is with someone right now, he should cherish that and focus his love all on that person. (in fact i am busy with school, and as with my previous posts i said that i don't think i can put in the effort for a relationship.) He finally got the message, and said that he was a little hurt. But i couldn't take back what i said, because i meant it, and i didn't want to lead him on saying that i liked him or something. I told him that we can be friends, and ill be there to talk to him about anything that happens with him. We ended by hugging and saying goodbye on the elevator, because the person he currently likes lives in the same apartment as me. As of now, i don't know how i feel but i feel relieved that this experience with E has taught me many valuable lessons. I know what i want in a relationship if i did pursue it. I want to not have sex, and have a good time hanging out with my potential partner. I think that sex can come into play when we both know each other well, and want to commit to a long term relationship.
Thats all for now, and i am heading to bed now cuz i feel sick haha.
Nite,
Jake
e: Hey im near your place, wanna meet up?
me: oh ill be back in 15 mins. (i was already in the apartment)
e: Do you wanna hang out now?
e: can i go up now?
me: ok lets meet downstairs
e: what ever.
me: kk im going down now
I think he said whatever because he knew i was avoiding him and now didn't want him to go up to my apartment. (but that will never be known, thats my interpretation)
I went downstairs outside of the lobby of my apartment, and after walking around by myself in circles, i see a figure that looks like him. I am bad at recognizing people, so i stare for a couple seconds, and soon i see someone waving at me. We got closer and hugged. Then we proceeded to sit at a table outside, and we caught up on what happened with our lives and etc. Soon it got to the question. He said that he met someone he really liked that lived in my apartment, and that they have been going out for past couple weeks. E asked me though if i still had any feelings towards him, because he still thinks about me and likes me a little. I didn't want to say outright that i don't have any feelings for him anymore, and that he should focus on who he is dating right now. Instead, i said that i really don't have time for a relationship, and that since he is with someone right now, he should cherish that and focus his love all on that person. (in fact i am busy with school, and as with my previous posts i said that i don't think i can put in the effort for a relationship.) He finally got the message, and said that he was a little hurt. But i couldn't take back what i said, because i meant it, and i didn't want to lead him on saying that i liked him or something. I told him that we can be friends, and ill be there to talk to him about anything that happens with him. We ended by hugging and saying goodbye on the elevator, because the person he currently likes lives in the same apartment as me. As of now, i don't know how i feel but i feel relieved that this experience with E has taught me many valuable lessons. I know what i want in a relationship if i did pursue it. I want to not have sex, and have a good time hanging out with my potential partner. I think that sex can come into play when we both know each other well, and want to commit to a long term relationship.
Thats all for now, and i am heading to bed now cuz i feel sick haha.
Nite,
Jake
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Made Some Changes
just some quick changes, like the intro, title, and blog design. I think i will change these things when i feel that i have changed and understand more about myself. It will reflect the changes that i currently am going through. The title just reinforces the thought of where am i really at in life and what am i doing. That is all for now, going to go study for once haha.
This is one thing i never take advantage of...never
and that is MY WEEKENDS to catch up on work haha. I never do anything on weekends, when i really have to likes school work. If something is due on mond. i will wait till Sunday night to complete. Im just in general, a big procrastinator. But i get things done. Still, i am working on trying to do stuff more earlier.
Today, i was supposed to study, but instead read blogs and went to cheesecake factory with my sis and parents.
I got pics to show, but will post later.
Cheers,
Jake
Today, i was supposed to study, but instead read blogs and went to cheesecake factory with my sis and parents.
I got pics to show, but will post later.
Cheers,
Jake
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