In Deep Trouble

--dated sophmore year...lol its saddening to read this in a draft? Recently i have been feeling quite depressed, mostly because of my academic life--furthermore which affects my social life. I guess i can say i was doing quite well in college until i started organic chemistry. I'm currently on my second quarter of ochem, and i have been behind A LOT. I already barely passed ochem first quarter with a C--i really dont even know how i passed first quarter because i didn't know anything nor did i study until couple days before the final exam. This quarter is a little bit the same for ochem, i am behind and i really don't know anything. This class along with physics has brought my confidence in studying at its low. For example, in recent weeks including today, i have been ditching my math class and ochem class. I justify not going by telling myself that there are podcasts, or that i probably won't learn anything my going to lecture since im so far behind. As a result of all this, i try to study and stay in my room -- but its not effective cuz i end up doing something else. I need to step my game up, and i'm just disappointed about what i have been doing for the past few weeks. Anyways thats it for now.

Can You Lend A Hand?

Sorry i meant to post this a while back, but needed to edit it, but here it goes:

This morning i just went to my every other Saturday mentor mentee program. This mentor mentee program is to pair college students with other students from (middle school to college) who have autism. I joined the autism club at my school, because i wanted to learn about a disorder that i have heard of but never really studied or knew about in depth like cancer or heart disease. This club has been very rewarding. My mentee has stayed in the program for almost an entire year now, and although there are other mentees out there they usual leave within a quarter or two because they are either uncomfortable or their mentor is not the perfect match for them. I am grateful for my mentee staying, and i hope to work on and strengthen our relationship as he improves on certain areas of his social skills. I just wanna say that i love contributing back to the community and helping those around me. I will help anybody whether they are my friends or strangers. I feel that since i have the ability to help others, its important to contribute now because the community around us is who we are.

Care to help someone out?